My Hero....
Sunday, February 24, 2008
I have accomplished much in my life so far. I have had the ability to go after what I love in life. Along the way, I have found role models in the science world that set an example to follow. Since I was a child, I have been in awe of Jane Goodall and all that she has accomplished. In my eyes, she has managed to have it all. She sets an amazing example to follow.
However, she is not my Hero. There is another that has always been the person that I look up to, strive to follow and sets the example of the type of woman that I want to be. This woman is everything that I wish to be and I hope to become.
So....Mom, you are my hero. You have always been my hero. I can remember writing about my hero in the 8th grade and telling about how great you were then. I described how you worked a full day, raised a family, studied at night and built a house in the spare hours. In the years since, my admiration has only grown. I can honestly say that I would be nothing without you. You have always been in the shadows picking me up when I needed it, ready to catch when I didn't and my biggest fan when I made it.
I know you struggled for us, sacrificed more than you are willing to confess and gave up dreams of your own to make ours come true. When the weight of the world rested upon your shoulders and threatened to come down time and time again, you held it all on your own. And when the world did crash down, you were the pillar of support never once faltering. For so many years, you stood there silently, taking what life dealt and always protecting us from the world. I think I understand more than you think, the price you paid for this sacrifice. I understand the life you could have had and the things you gave up for us. More importantly, you never hinted or acted like you would have it any way. I know you have regrets. Don't. We do not. Sarah and I would change nothing since it made us who we are and the bond that we have. Had things been differntly, our relationship between her and I and also us and you might have been too. Life is something you learn from. We have have learned how to be strong. We have also learned the value of family, unconditional love and loyalty. You have given us an example.
Here is something you probably didn't know. I had always planned on going to college because you wanted to and could not. Initially, I went for you. I wanted you to be so proud. I wanted to do the things that you always wanted, but life took away from you. As the years passed, so did my reason for being there. I started to go to school for me, for the things I wanted, but mostly, for the things you told me to go after. So, all that I have accomplished is because of you in so many ways.
So I guess saying 'Thank You' is not nearly enough for all that you have given me. You have given me a future, a chance to go after my dreams and the support no matter the path I choose. But most of all, you gave me a Hero.
You are and always have been "The Wind Beneath My Wings" ....and there are no words to describe what you mean to me.
I Love You more than words can describe.
posted by Sonya @ 2/24/2008 12:41:00 PM, ,
All Seasons in One
April is in my mistress' face,
And July in her eyes hath place,
Within her bosom is September,
But in her heart a cold December.
-Unknown Authorship
Labels: poem
posted by Sonya @ 2/24/2008 12:08:00 PM, ,
How To Describe The Feeling....
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Depression. Not so much.
Sadness. Not so much.
Exhaustion. Most likely.
Sometimes life can take up every last second that one can forget what it feels like to breathe.
Dreams. Goals. Passion. These are one in the same. They can overwhelm the soul so that one loses where one thought ends and the next begins.
At this moment, I forget what tired feels like. I have long past that point. When gazing behind, I can no longer see the point in time that tired existed.
Only one that has given all they have into dreams lived with every breath can truly understand the utter bereavement of exhaustion and the utter joy existing in each second of each day.
Ahhh...life is painful and sweet in the same single moment....time stops and speeds ahead simultaneously. The present makes one forget time while at the same time leaving a fear that it is moving to fast.
Depression. No. Obsession. Yes.
posted by Sonya @ 2/09/2008 12:19:00 AM, ,
What Do You Do....
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
As the mood of late that I just can't seem to lose, I wonder what others do when they find themselves questioning everything that they have always just known and not stopped to consider.
What do you do when you question....
Where you are going?
What you are striving for?
What the future holds?
What will become of you?
What does this all mean?
But mostly....
Who you are?
posted by Sonya @ 2/05/2008 11:57:00 PM, ,
